Thoughts of a delirious mind. Not worth reading.
It’s after a lot of RSI (repetitive strain injury) on my inflated ego that I thought I’d finally write something on this. Excuse me if this sounds like unmistakable narcissism. It’s actually quite the opposite. I hate my shape…and the peripheral feelings that come with having to deal with obesity.
Point is, I am gradually becoming a shipping hazard. I used to fit in denims…but I don’t anymore. I used to look acceptable in sleeveless Kutras…now I hide under oversized clothes that resemble ugly pillow cases. I used to wear matching accessories. Now I feel too much like a pasta-mama who deserves to hide.
Do I sound like an adolescent? Perhaps I do. But how do you deal with crazy routines and still fit into that cosmic latte skirt that you bought nearly with half your salary?
Sample the conversation with my alter ego:
My day starts with no-exercise ______aha! that’s it…you fatso should just move it_____I am only too tired from sleeping late____why did you sleep late?____there was a mammoth power cut_____ok then what?____I cook and manage the maid_____by the time she is gone, its already too late____so?_____I get a bath and get dressed______work huh?______yeah, and would you believe? I feel like moving jello when I walk those few steps to the reception; the wind blows in the opposite direction; my hair blows up like a set of electric wires, and my Kurta flies up…and those thunder thighs!_____so don’t use the elevator, just walk____duh! It’s on the 6th floor_____so wake up in the morning and go for a jog____you know how it is; people shit all over the place____you’re just creating an excuse, you loser!_____ I know, and I also have BED______yeah I know you have a bed______not a bed! I have BED; binge-eating disorder______get lost! You deserve your size and shape!
And that’s how it ends. Maybe I should just leave work, quit social life, go to the mountains and become a hermit…a big fat hermit. These are just thoughts of a delirious mind. Not worth reading.
10 comments:
You need to go to a 'I-don't-care-how-I-look' rehab. Or enrol in a TV program that we have in Australia called 'How to Look Good Naked'. It features slightly overweight people (who are otherwise beautiful) with low self esteem.
oh totally worth reading. I identify very well with this. My solution- revamp your wardrobe and replace with all things balck. It makes u look slimmer by a good 3 inches :D. No really, just chill babe. Its all in the mind. The more u rant, the more you'll binge. BTW, have u read The Secret by Rhonda Bryne, Yet?
No KG, I haven't....is it a good read? BTW...Scribbler, ur right...maybe I should stop giving a shit
Hmmm, not quite agreeing with the rest here. my apologies.
Not telling you anything that u already don't know, but baby, you got to get up and get going. Everything else can wait. Forget the grahasti bit for a while, it's a hottie underneath that's waiting to get out.
hottie??? :D that's a first!
its a book that changed my life. I dont ever read books that preach- i just cant get thru such books. But The Secret really made an impact - its a MUST read. This post of yours would have been written with a totally different perspective, if u were a Secret follower. Give it a try. Scribbler, u too :)
sure thing...will try...right now I am too in awe of Bryson...cannot get him out of my system
are u talking about 'screw it just do it'? i read it too...please read the secret. :D
I am talkin about the lost continent....read it if u havn't...its hilarious...and will definitely read Secret
The Lost Continent is awesome. I swear by it. KG, will surely read Secret..
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